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Here's my nth attempt at creating a decent blogging site. I've had so many old blogs, and they're all rotting in cyberspace with memories that I'd rather not return to, so I'm starting from scratch. AGAIN.

I'm Fam. I've been around Planet Earth for 16 years and counting, though people often think I'm a lot older than my actual age (for who knows why). I love the color red, dark chocolate, bananas and breezy, sunny days.

I love dancing, singing out of nowhere, taking pictures, going on long, leisurely walks, enjoying food, writing to my heart's content, drawing, painting and indulging in crazy-sensible conversations with crazy-sensible people.

My moods swing like a pendulum, and yes, I am one of those people who overreact, over-think, and overeat. There's no better way to get to know me than to actually listen... and if you can, speak up. Don't worry, I won't bite... except if your grammar and intentions are atrocious. ;)

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Ignorance (just might be): my new BFF, too.
OMG. My girly side is aliiive! :O
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Oh, FUCK IT.

Alright, alright. I was gonna talk all emo again but there are things happening in our country that are way more important than that so screw my feelings. It’s election day in what? 3 days? 4 days?

I wasn’t paid to advertise anyone so i won’t be encouraging anyone to vote for some candidate because i don’t know any more than you guys, to be honest. I read THIS though. It’s not biased to anyone so if you want to be informed, read it.

Here’s what i have to say though..

Don’t just vote for Noynoy Aquino because of his parents because he’s not Ninoy or Cory, he’s Noynoy. If you rely on that info alone, then you might as well vote for Kris Aquino for president (Sige, she’ll put all jejemons to jail and require us to speak Taglish). Just because Noynoy’s parents were great (or so they say), doesn’t mean he’ll be the same. Maybe one thing i trust in the guy is the fact that he has a clean record so it’s very possible that he won’t steal. That i may be 85% sure of so that’s a plus. But then again, he may have a clean stealing record but he also has a clean and very empty record as a Senator with almost no bills passed. That’s one big downer. His platform isnt so impressive either. “Nangangako sa Pilipino na hindi magnakaw.” — o, tapos? You can vote for him for assurance though which everyone happens to be doing. Parang laging “Kase i don’t trust all the other candidates” lang yung reasons to vote for him. It’s actually unwise to vote like that. Okay, you trust him …. and that he won’t steal but do you trust him enough to run the country? two very different things. (I ABSOLUTELY AGREE. --Fam)

Don’t just vote for Manny Villar because of his jingles and commercials and because of all the famous people campaigning for him. Yes, Willie and Manny and Dolphy are all campaigning for him but does that mean he can do a great job as a president? I must admit, it was very wise of him to let the most influencial people in this country campaign for him but that’s more of a businessman move (PRECISELY!). Malay mo, those influential people don’t know shit about Villar either. Very wise move but not a wise reason to base your vote soley on the people on his side. His businessman-ness could be a good reason to vote for him. As sure as i am that Noynoy won’t steal, i’m pretty sure Villar will do good and productive things as president. I’m basing that on the many many bills and laws he has passed as Senator. Then again, since he’s a businessman, he’ll have to make money for himself as president and that’s not good since we don’t have that much money anymore. Though his songs get stuck in your head, that doesn’t mean that he can make all them lyrics come to pass as president. And besides… “Tapusin ang kahirapan”? A bit too high up there, don’t you think? (That's NEVER gonna happen. Poverty's as inevitable as death.) How will he start? Won’t he have to get back the billions he spend on campaigning first before stopping poverty? all in just a span of 6 years?

Don’t just vote for Gibo Teodoro because he’s smart and he’s from Harvard because lots of great presidents didn’t have to be from Harvard or pass bar exams and do smart stuff. What’s up with people saying they’ll vote for him because he’s smart? If this was about building a rocketship or inventing medicine, then i don’t mind people basing their vote on his intelligence but this is running a country we are talking about. Just because you’re smart doesn’t mean you can run a country. So meaning, since i didn’t graduate with laude laude means i can’t run the country just as well as someone who came from Harvard? I don’t think they had “Run a country 101″ there so.. One downer for Gibo, which a lot of people don’t realize, is how he never really used his smart-ness during his political positions. That whole Ampatuan Massacre controversy wasn’t very “galing at talino” of him as secretary of national defense. What’s having intelligence if you don’t use it? It’s like having wings but not flying. And if he does start using that intelligence of his, remember that Marcos was incredibly smart too. (But Marcos was corrupted... by his wife.)

Sorry but i don’t know much about Dick Gordon to say anything.. All i hear are good things about him. He seems like the most fit candidate to everyone. I mean, seriously. There’s that Subic scandal and the jail thing though but i really don’t know much about that or all the other issues to talk about him. I got tamad to read about him so sorry. Maybe the most shallow reason not to vote for a president is in him. I mean.. President Dick? How…honorable. Aside from his name being synonymous to cock, i have no bad things or good things to say about him. Just a lack of info and research, sorry.

The way i see it, it’s only between those 4… If Jambi wins, imma be like wth. (It's unlikely anyway)

They all have their flaws and they all have their strengths. For a country in dire need of a good president, we seem to have a lack of better candidates, to be honest. Merong hindi corrupt pero wala namang nagawa. Merong gawa ng gawa pero hinihinalang mangnanakaw. I guess it’s all about knowing what you think is best for our county right now. I can’t vote so this will be my contibution to my mother land. Don’t believe that they’re all the same and it wont make a different because it will make a difference. A BIG ONE. A difference i want to be proud of after 6 years. Vote wisely everyone! (ALL HAIL!)

-- Issa Colmenares (via Feel The Gasm)

(I just felt like quoting this since, like her, I can't vote ]I'm two years below the minimum voting age]. Hats off to you, Issa! :D The message will not be left unheeded. Trust me *winks*)

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Anyway...

Today marks:
Two days before the epic (hopefully not epic FAIL) elections
The second long weekend this summer
My 19th month anniversary with Paula Briones
My 10 month anniversary with... *sigh*

Okay. Why am I commemorating things that don't matter? What am I celebrating? It feels like I'm having the party with only my shadow and the food.

Today, I feel hollow. I feel so far away from the people who love me and genuinely sympathize with what's racing through my mind right now. Why am I so sad?

I'm worn out.

When will I ever be happy here?
WHEN?



I need my faith now more than ever :(
But did I ever have faith to begin with?

posted on Friday, May 7, 2010 @ 5:01 PM