This is a blog post meant for just one person, but there's no use putting it on private. After all, I've nothing to hide ;)
imacrazylilwitch2817smileys: GAHHH. Pet Society won't load! I wanna plaaay! :|
malicious_apple: Uh... That's a loss... :)) :P
-- Y!M conversation (est. May 15, 2009)
I was going to give you a letter today in order to commemorate what makes today such a big deal, at least for me. However, we weren't able to meet today, so this blog post will have to do for now. Don't worry, though, I have something new to give you tomorrow. You should know by now that I almost never run out of things to talk and write about.
Today marks the day that you and I first talked to each other. I don't know if you already knew that, but I'm saying it anyway, just so you know.
It hasn't been year from the day we entered our relationship (at least, not yet), but it is the day that we became friends, and that is something I hold just as dear. You may think I'm being weird, commemorating something that people may just pass off as something ordinary. However, I do believe that the most important thing between the life (yes, that's singular) of two people is the day they meet. That's where it all begins, and without it, the romance wouldn't come to life to begin with. The beginning also gives an impression of how the two would turn out should a romantic relationship emerge out of their bond; it's the foundation that makes it sturdy once it reaches that point. Well, I've never been too keen on online friendships, and I thought that these were shallow and never work out, but the one I've formed with you definitely proved my stereotyped thinking wrong. At the time we were talking to each other on the Internet, I felt as though a connection was really bound to happen between us then.
My friend from dance-sports and I talked about relationships today. I told her that I don't quite agree with the saying, "When it starts too fast, it's bound to end just as fast if not faster". It's not really the speed in which two people move from friendship to something more profound; rather, it's about how they connect and how steadfast they are in keeping that connection. Everything between the two of us happened naturally, so subtly yet so effortlessly that I look at our humble beginnings and stare in awe at how that spark gave birth to the star in the heavens, close to both the moon and the sun.
Honestly, I never thought we'd see through this day. I'm thankful to the Heavens, though, that we did. Remembering everything we have been through after that fateful day has been seared into my memory, and nothing can ever take that away.
I'm thankful I was able to meet someone like you, and be close to you as I am now. You're the only man (yes, a man) who actually saw me more than just the typical weird geek. I'm not the kind of girl that anyone would look at twice, but thank you for making me feel that I'm someone worth a second glance. I never thought I would be able to connect with someone the way I did with you, but then you were the only one whom I felt an empathy of sorts in the most subtle ways ever. Just for that, I'll never forget you.
Oh and, yeah, you're gay, that's given. Hahaha! But I wouldn't have you any other way. It's something that connects you to women, and, therefore, to me.
Here's for the year of "sabaw" moments and conversations which would usually last from 9 AM through 11 PM or until my mom chases me out of the computer.
Here's for the year of sharing joys and pains, and insights about everything.
Here's for the year of the almost endless streams of comments, tweets, status posts and text messages.
Here's for the year of LMAO's and "Nyoron~" (cheesy) moments.
Here's for the year of sharing heartaches, heartbreaks and all those other things that make us less of the happy people we're meant to be.
Here's for the year I spent getting to know you and holding you dear as my special friend.
Here's for the year that completely changed my life and the way I see things.
Here's for the year of tria haec--faith, hope and love :)
I just remembered that I never got to thank you for how you made my May 2009 the best end-of-summer experience I've ever had so far. Thank you for making me see last year's summer in a positive light. At the time that I needed a friend to share my confidences in, I was able to turn to you even though we hadn't even met at the time. As you may know, my summer was full of feeling of being unrequited and deprived. Maybe my Psy101 professor's discussion on the "province girl Cinderella who surfs the Internet all day waiting for her Prince to come and take her away" applied to me after all. You listen to me whine and babble, and I still admire how your patience with me was that strong. I thought you'd hide away and never talk to me again after the first few IM's, but there you were. You stayed. Just when I needed to not be left behind.
I'll leave you with this song to wrap things up. This song was in my head when we watched the fireworks together at the Paskuhan in UST. Sure, there was tension between us at the time and it could have been better, but it's one of my fondest memories of us. That time, I was wondering if our relationship would even see the New Year; I was pondering on the question you raised last December 8, 2009 ("Do you still want to go on with what we have?"), and by the way you pretty much passed me off as blah during Paskuhan (kayy, bitter?), I didn't know if our friendship was strong enough to brave the storm. Now that I think about it, though, we made it through. Again, I'm thankful that we're still here, as friends and as lovers.
Sorry if the song may be too cheesy and stupid for you. It's my current LSS, and I think it's appropriate for this post. You can find the lyrics and the translation by clicking
here.
I guess this letter has gone long enough. I'll end this by telling you that I may not always understand your way of thinking, but I'll take it in as your own will directing you where to go. I may not fully "get" your psychodynamics, but it doesn't mean I don't accept you the way you are. My comprehension is limited, but that doesn't mean my appreciation of you, your eccentricity and your uniqueness can't go deeper.
When you need to break down or you want to be "sabaw", I'm here, okay? Your every emotion is safe with me. I may not be you best friend in the whole wide world, but I'm being the best that I know how to be. I don't know if that's enough, but that won't keep me from trying. You've been there for me when my world fell apart, and I want to do the same thing for you.
"Don't forget
the day that we met
'cause it changes
history... at least for
you and me."
On May 15, 2009, I have taken a bite out of the malicious apple from the Tree of Knowledge.
The intoxication peaked seven weeks later... and has progressed exactly 41 weeks later (and counting).
There's only NOW.
There's only HERE.
HAPPY MAY 15th! >:D<
See you later ;)
'cause we shall forever be Friends and Lovers til the end.
posted on Saturday, May 15, 2010 @ 7:09 AM
